我会将想念折好,偷偷藏在心里面,
每一晚,至少还有你陪我入眠......................................

你会比我爱你更爱我,

因为我只有你,你只有我.................

小牛抱枕...........................每个夜里,你是我最好的陪伴...................

L.O.V.E

小鸡们渐渐长大变大鸡了~
你们呀~能吃就尽量吃,能跟我玩越狱就尽量玩...话说今天趁我手忙脚乱帮它们换吃的喝的时,有两只鸡企图越狱....还跟我玩躲猫猫....幸好一位路过的大侠把它们抱了回来...
看着它们,也感叹时间一过,接近它们被宰的日子也越近...
可惜你们是鸡,没能选择自己的生命...

現實像是一頭蠻橫的野獸，對於夢想追求者，它總是窮追不舍、百般阻撓，為了不讓它戰勝你，你必須遇強則強，堅持到底。

快樂源自於對理想的堅持，源自於對知識的追求、也源自於對生命的付出......


星洲日報／副刊‧文

小牛留血了......

我洗了好久..还是看得出~

:(

兔年快乐，
也祝您生日快乐！最亲爱的妈咪。。。。
由其是打暖炉时，特别想念，多年前，我们一起的最后一次除夕晚餐，也是吃着火锅，
子欲养而亲不再，这句话，我深刻体会，，所以，家人，一直排在我心里第一位，任谁也替代不了~
愿在天上的你，能收到我的这份思念。。。love

最近看到很多残害动物的报道...真的很气愤也很难过,身为人类,我觉得可耻!
你们怎么可以这样,难道没有想到报应的么?....
如果动物们也在策划报复,全部一并自杀,最后,受害的全是人类的后代,人类,等着绝种吗?
每次听到人类说人道,那在残害动物的当下,你们还有人道可言嚒?还是已经被钞票蒙住了双眼,连怜悯慈悲之心也无存了么?
它们是那么手无寸铁地任人宰割,禁锢,残害,.....
它们要如何反抗呀!!!?
动物也有感受,也有情感,也会伤心,会害怕,会生气,会痛,会绝望,它们没有的只是人类的阴险毒辣足智多谋.....
就说最近很轰动的虐待贵宾狗的新闻好了,它是你的小狗宠物也...对它的生命而言,你是它的全世界,它可以轻而易举地伤害你,但它没有,它识你为主人,它效忠你,可以说,若它觉得有对你不利的状况,肯定会不顾一切去保护你,而你身为主人,却对弱小的它拳打脚踢,丢它去撞墙等的举动....!!!!!!!
请看!!!

http://www.facebook.com/#!/note.php?note_id=487737243554&id=721626676

天理不容~也呼吁社会大众,停止食野味,或吃熊胆,熊掌,虎鞭等~只有停止需求,才能停止猎取残害野生动物的事件继续的发生~

i care~

Still working on ways to show you i CARE......
Somedays,time will prove it to you..................
Till that time..I want you be the one who witness it........

Life is hard Love is Everything.......
Give thanks and cherish everything that others did for you.....
Never take for granted....
Should be satisfied with what we have......
You will find life goes better everyday^^
These were what i had realised today from church preaching this morning.......

来陪我安静片刻,好嚒?

很久很久没有听太过悲伤,很emo的歌了...
因为想像答应你的事,要常开心的,因为你会难过我的难过,

我想因为有你,所以我不需要那些悲伤的歌来麻醉自己.......
今晚,躺在床上,原本以我累的程度能直接就睡着了...
就突然想听听你听的歌....
我觉得,
我有很多很多话想跟你说,
可是一句也说不出来,或许也说不清楚,
很多时候,很多想对你做的事情,说的话,我就是做不好说不好.........
很多时候就是搞砸了...........
很多话,不是我想说的..........
可是生活中有太多太多事情让我很累很累
累到我说话的态度也变成另一个人............有时侯,我想啥多不说,想要你陪我安静...
就安静片刻...
我想你明白就算不用说太白你也会了解的默契......

可是,最后,我发现,因为有我,你需要那些悲伤的歌.........
我竟然让你有那种孤单的感觉......
我想说贝,我很抱歉,我很想念你,超级想现在抱着你大哭...
可是,愧疚感让我一句都说不出来,

是不是,我根本就不懂怎么去爱及珍惜一个人呢...................
原来听'两个人的荒岛,也会让人泪流不止.......

你做的事情,我没有一件是不感动至今,我在乎的不是那些事,我在乎的是你,你的心意,那是你为我做的事,多么特别,多么珍贵,那些回忆,那些画面,

但是,我都想偷偷把这些感动好好小心的收在心里,也不想你懂......偶尔拿出来想想,也能开心很久....
我希望我爱的你一直一直能拥有最多的快乐,来自我.........可不可以来陪我安静片刻

R.I.P

今天,我真的很累....

走了好远好远的路...去上郊外课~

然后原本是要再走很远很远的路加山路去喂我的小鸡们...可是我和朋友贪图省时而误信tunjuk sesat..结果我们走了更远更远的冤枉路...结果遇到路人才被告知根本没有捷径到鸡场...结果只好绕回正途=.=''
我们两个傻瓜~~~~~

终于到了目的地...整个人还没喘一口气..就看到我们50只小鸡的其中一只整个埋在木屑里,被其他鸡踩过.....我整个人冷掉.....
是的..死了一只鸡...
虽然说死亡在小鸡初期中很平常..至少都得死个三只...当然,我们都很难过..............
能怎样呢?....
所以要更小心照顾它们了................

现在,我还得忙分类我的牧草功课......还要写报告....
来这打打字..纯粹是来发泄发泄...
最后,
今天,我真的很累~><

Whenever i think of you..i know i am not alone...

Sem 4 Special project

In this semester,we have a special project to do.. "raise chicken in group'....

We are all divided in 10 groups and each group has 6-7 members...Yea,we got group number 7...Hopefully,we could be as lucky as lucky bumber 7..That's mean least death toll among 50 given chicks.

We were asked to feed them twice per day,morning (6.30am)and evening(5pm)...Hence,could you imagine how hectic our daily lives are.......Ergo,
shift work is required in order to lessen our burdens>.< href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIww9y4IV_nW9UCtQsis2jcaMjFAOg1qcuIBJpyZ5KkcZGF9Bh7Y_kcpzI-BT4MsLz7Z-JG8xYE_AQeZYgZJEvCof-mWrPwt4iF4WYdmFvTzJlyJfojoH_dnYKSNojUcxIAmxc8mM9uHso/s1600/DSC00586.JPG">
Disinfect the coop is a necessary job....Actually,we have to do it one week before their arrival..
chicken raising equipments and materials...


Sheet of canvas is placed on the foor of the coop so that we can sprinkle soil dust on it after that....



Clean the dusty coop...........


Set up the canvas as the coop's curtains in order to keep the temperature for the chicks.......Chicks need warm temperature ,therefore,mentol bulbs are ready for them....


Finally,their brooding area was done by us

Hopefuuly,they can grow healthily and actively^^You guys look awesomely adorable at this stage........In fact,these cuteness will be diminished after a few weeks later...
To be frank,you guys are gonna be sacrificed and slaughtered by us in week 6th.................How pathetic><

what can i say....part of learning process....juz have to bear wth it,harden my heart and juz continue my part...

birthday celebration in bintulu

my weekend saturdaynitez.....spent together with my gang here in UPM,bintulu.......
As usual,rainy night...we all felt freaking cold probably due to the weather and sense of starving~ We were having our dinner at After Three Restaurant near to Park city Mall.. After ended our meal,we were all supposed to pay the bills and leave..becoz in early i were told by Byron that they cant find any cakes for us..
and again..my foolishness got myself into his traps..


A white chocalate cake was brought infront to us...and i was like,'hey...where did u got this?'...........

my birthday on 13th jan whereas mei yi's was on 14th jan...that's why we celebrated it together^^

these are our gang of friends...

feel grateful to them sincerely...for the cakes,birthday songs ..These had brought me some warmth in this isnt home place....

P.s:

Little present for myself-->>>

Silky girl double intense gel eyeliner...^^

as a reward for being myself in these past 20 years and a kit for me to turn into 20 year old little lady.....

二十岁的自己

'我的力道很轻,请勿担心'
今年生日,

外面还是像去年样,下着好久好大的雨........

虽然不能像去年一样有你陪着一起漫步当落汤鸡,

可是今年我却感受到升华的情感........谢谢你让我知道,我很幸福........

因为我拥有了你,

让我知道,虽然你今年不能陪着我渡过,你是比我还要难过的,

原本不舒服的感觉,顿时要没了.... 我了解的,就像你会体会到我的感受一样~

今年二十岁生日,没有蛋糕,没有你,没有家人,没有可可不不,没有亲爱的朋友们,

可是我还有50只小鸡,还有同学室友在这里祝贺我生日快乐,还有老爸记得我的生日,还有朋友千里寄来的生日祝贺信息,还有很多不是很熟的朋友老同学在面子书的留言,还有外面下着和去年一样的大雨......

二十岁的我,心存感谢,感谢上帝保守我平安活到今天,能感受到那么多的关爱与祝福,我是多么幸运与幸福的....谢谢妈咪在二十年前辛苦把我带到这世上,我的生日,都让我非常想念你,我们相连的最后一刻,我们认识的这一天,13.01.1991...........
我永远永远怀念你!

最后,悄悄祝福二十岁的自己,

'生日快乐,happy birthday!'

还有你们这五十只小小家伙,欢迎光临!

dressing room fun-my chinese cheongsam look

this is wat i did during my weekend........
spent my time at farley's dress department 's fitting room,playing dress up.... meanwhile waiting for my roommate and her sis who busy doing grocery shopping..........

outcome is showing up~~
da dang!!!!!!!!!!!!

vonlajune in cheongsam look~~~~~~

this is my ever 1st time dress up in cheongsam~never try it before......but,anyway,i m not ready to buy it yet.....as though there's none occasion that need to wear it ...........

And this time is just taking pic for fun..........
Finally,i know this is what i look like in cheongsam........If i really need to wear it at some other time,get rid of my tummy is the 1st thing which is a MUST TO DO........hahahaha>.<

'When a girl is on the verge of tears, just hug her real tight. Let her cry, hold her close and continue to wipe her tears. That’s probably all she really wants.'

this phrase was so true..
it makes me think of what you usually did to me.....
thank god & feel grateful to have you.............................^^

喜欢几米的作品,很有感觉.......
婚姻,对我而言,我还不知道那是什么 ...或许哪天年龄增加了,就懂了~

'我只是希望在我不开心的时候,他可以让我觉得他会一直陪在我身边,
即使不安慰什么 ,只要抱着我,
紧些,紧些,再紧些,
说,他会一直很爱我'

读到这段,不知怎么了,我的心被震下..有种感触...
这么简单的要求而已..
但却还在等待...
多么悲哀....

No hold back

每次要回去bintulu读书,情绪就超不好,

老爸就会很担心很着急我是不是后悔,不想念了,

其实,也不过是当下的的心情,有谁会因为离开熟悉的家乡,温暖的背窝,亲爱的家人去到一个离家不近的地方念书生活而开心的呢...

或许没离家过的人会很期待兴奋吧~体验过了,就不一定会高兴得起来了~

我只不过发发牢骚而已,我知道我得收拾心情回到念书岗位去..

只不过很舍不得家人,舍不得不不可可,舍不得家而已...

或许我真不应该让老爸看到我这些负面情绪...

我懂我自己,开始的事,我绝对会坚持下去,这方面我很强,我很清楚....

可能,半途我会觉得很累很厌倦,但是中途放弃不是我会做的事,后悔,没想过,坚持我的理想是我的信念.....

as what told by my father,just take this hard task as a tough yet interesting game,be strong and fight it,with the blessing from god,strong faith will help you win this battle.

keep moving on and no hold back to get ahead....vonlajune,加油!

再见!2010!

再见2010...
感觉很奇妙,我活了二十年了,好快,
我要告别我十几岁的青春,踏入人生的另一个阶段,
20岁的人生,正在等着我....那个青涩的自己,我也忘了怎么转变了....很多事情再也不单纯简单,但是我仍然相信只要还有爱存在,这世界还算美好.....
有些时候,一些人,事,物,太美好,我总想要保留,想停留着,
但是,想想,
我若停留了,怎么看得到前面更美好的风景呢?

我想自己要学习自我成长了,不管是心智还是想法,
改变自己,向前迈进,找寻人生美好的事情,
许多的事情,我想去完成的在前方,
我要掀开人生的另一章,
但愿更精彩,
未来,希望我爱,爱我的家人,朋友都蒙神保守,健康平安的守护,陪伴着我,
2010年,有主耶稣的恩典,不管是艰难,痛苦,试验,悲伤或快乐,我都渡过了,
感谢神,荣耀归给至高者,耶何华...
2011年,不管前方有啥在等着我,我都要勇敢地迎向前...
祝福我自己^^加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s:
除了家人朋友,有个重要的人,不管伤心,痛苦,还是快乐一直陪着我的人,谢谢你,凯文!
有你,2010我的生命变得精彩!
爱你!^^

vonla with light make up~

yea..it's me....with little make up during church xmas eve annual dinner..i doesnt looked much different didnt i?....

anyhow,i would never step in the salon again~my hair cant be curl for long hours...and turn no more curl b4 the dinner session ends...and the make up i think it was sucks~~maybe it just cant impress myself~

>.<

i learned a lesson anyway...vonla should practice make up more often from now on~aiyoyo><

xmas 2010 wth my DEARS

xmas dinner wth my gang on xmas 2010....
as u can see,ah po was left out again~every year the same>. after having steamboat dinner at 'yong chi huo guo'...we straightaway head down to somewhere near jetty~

yea~our usual activities..taking funny weird pic~

thankss to kevin lim to be our cameraman...and his new iphone4 either~

feeling drunk in tis pic????actually,i m not~juz warming up and get ready for it??
it was juz champaign..... wakakakka...i have no gut to try real wine~i juz cant stand the taste~bitter taste~wondering why others love it~
i love tis pic the most~we look sweet and close^^

回懵一笑~哈哈~did we looked sweet?wahahha.......
ah muey and me^^love~***

we used to take these kind of pic during our secondary sch~and now we juz repeat our childish act~well,i was satisified to gt xm's sweet wet kiss~
happy to have my xmas wth them~^^i love my gang...i love my boy^^
lastly,cameraman and vonla^^smile~~~~~~~~~~~
juz doing wat they wish to see~so far ,how's our grade?

*^^*