insomnia

i was having a weird body condition lately
insomnia during the night........................................
and quite a  lot of bad dreams throughout the night.........
 No doubt,i seriously  hate when night comes,
can't wait for tomorrow sun-rise and things that waiting for me to do.......
lying on the bed was just forcing myself to let my body to get some rest...
arrgghhhh.............................
These happened to kill me softly and badly.............
probably i should pray and asking  god to help me to get rid of  this problem first......
before healing my heart and soul........

*don't try to look back the past and putting our faith on him who has a wonderful plan for us in the future

today,i kept pondering something and asking god WHY things happened and ended up in such a way i never expected when i was attending morning service in church and finally i figured out 爱一个人不是想把他/她变成你想要他/她成为怎样的人，而是爱原来原本的他/她，
但是，当你发现，这样基本的事都无法办到时，就谈不上如何相依相守了，爱情就变成一种可悲的束缚。
牧师说，‘神曾问亚当，你寂寞吗？’但是当时亚当有上帝，所以他并不觉得寂寞，但是神过后还是给亚当创造了夏娃因为当时上帝说；‘那人独居不好我要为他造一个配偶帮助他’。
当我们还没有找到人生目标，根基还没扎稳，和神的关系还没建立得更加巩固时，或许，还不是时候谈得上去拥有一个配偶吧，因为或许我们会爱他胜过爱神。
一切都会过去，借着上帝给的力量，我相信我们一定能够走过一切悲伤，记忆会变得陈旧，慢慢的我们会过得比以前更好。