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张爱玲:“于千万人之中遇见你所要遇见的人,于千万年之中,时间的无涯的荒野里,没有早一步,也没有晚一步,刚巧赶上了,没有别的话可说,惟有轻轻地问一声:‘噢,你也在这里?’”



Saturday, May 18, 2013

5.5.2013 a seed dies and bears fruits

 I imagine you are watching us in heaven...
Or You re sitting next to mama...
Your spirit are present even though your body are lying in the coffin..
I still remember we were dining together in 'wai sac gei'..last two weeks ago.
That was a very sunny and hot evening...
I still remember you ordered yourself hotpot chicken rice....
I am not feeling well that time...I have no appetite..
I remember you still asked me whether i wanna order anythings to eat...
You are sitting next to me...You look so normal...Not like any last stage cancer patient I have ever met...
I am glad You did accept Christ and did the sinner prayer...I am glad i manage to pray for you when i have a strong feeling telling me that I have to pray for you..I am glad I still manage to give you a last hug when i last met you,,,
I still remember when I was small....babysitted by mama at your house...
I remember everytime you used to fetch me here and there with your motorbike..I still remember You used to brought us to pasar malam and bought us good food...
I still remember you always help me to take away the bone from the fish and put the fish without bone on my plate even though I already know how to do it myself....
 I still remember you like to smoke..and the smell from you...
I still remember your big tummy..
I still remember every morning or evening when i bring my dogs for a walk or cycling passed by your house..You are the first one i met...You are so busy tidy up the little garden you built up or burning something..
That's your habits....
 You seldom talk much...but I used to see you play around with your daughter and sons or even mama....
You used to drive the bus and bring the passenger to their destination..having their holidays..
You are a good bus driver....we all knew it....
 But, today(5/5/2013),you left in a sudden...
Mama said, You gave her a present that she would never ever forget on her birthday...
I know you both love each other in such a special way...
Even though you both like to tease each other...but you both couldn't bear to leave each other...
I can see the sadness in her eyes.............but i believe jesus gonna comfort her....
 she said she would love you forever...
and I believe she knows you love her forever as well...
Qiang gor gor realised a lot of things ever since you passed away..
He said he regretted not spending time with his family..with you...with his siblings...
He blamming himself not giving you monthly pocket money...
Till today only he knew that family togetherness and unity are the most important things in life...
He promised to take good care of mama and his bro and sista...
So, you don't need to worry and rest in peace with Jesus in Heaven...

 Thankyou for being such a important person in my childhood time....
I see you as my second father on earth....
And also I take this family as my second family.....Your family are the closes one in my childhood time since I lost my mum......
 I am glad Bernice still have a chance to knw her grandpa...but i dunno wouldnt she still able to remember her gong gong after she growing up...but kevin gor gor promised to remind her everyday..she used to has a gong gong who loves her a lot....
And how's the songs Leonard played for you...?
You are listening right?
we sang together for you...
I can sense the love and unity of the family spirit when we sang together...that was really a wonderful moment...

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But still,we are really really sad....and we grief a lot...
However, Jesus comfort me with a phrase...
'Your life are like a seed,only if the seed dies,it can bear fruits'
The fruits you bear we will see it somedays...God has a plan for bringing you back to heaven and I believe his plan is always the best for us....
And also we know we are just temporarily separate with you...
One day, we are going to meet you in heaven to have our eternal life together...
In remembrance of you,my beloved uncle- Tata